Shia LaBeouf

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But there would have been no impetus for me to get in my car, drive up [to the monastery] if I didn't think, 'Oh, I'm gonna save my career,'" he said. "It was seeing other people who have sinned beyond anything I could ever conceptualize also being found in Christ that made me feel like, 'Oh, that gives me hope,' " he said. "I had a gun on the table.

Renowned actor Shia LaBeouf just recently converted to Catholicism after his stay at a monastery with Franciscan Capuchin friars, in preparation for playing ...

Drawing me away from worldly desires. “I know now that God was using my ego to draw me to Him. The celebrity announced his decision during an interview with Bishop Robert Barron on Thursday.

After setting his 'life completely on fire' and being suicidal, Shia LaBeouf became Catholic. But that news was eclipsed amid a rift with Olivia Wilde.

He described himself as “nuclear” at the time and nobody wanted to talk to him — not his manager, his agent or even his mother. He said that his spirituality long “felt fake” and that he previously equated art, love and God as synonyms — and that acting made him feel godlike. He said he was egotistical when he came onboard the film, seeing it as a move to help rehabilitate his career by co-starring with Willem Dafoe. “It was seeing other people who had sinned beyond anything I could even conceptualize also being found in Christ that made me feel like, ‘OK, that gives me hope,’” LaBeouf added. [also recently collided](https://www.latimes.com/entertainment-arts/movies/story/2022-08-23/andrew-garfield-explains-his-love-for-method-acting) when famed Method actor Andrew Garfield recently spoke about his process while playing a Jesuit priest in [Martin Scorsese’s 2016 film “Silence”](https://www.latimes.com/entertainment/movies/la-et-mn-silence-review-20161216-story.html) — and the abstinence it entailed. But there would have been no impetus for me to get in the car and drive up [to the seminary] if I didn’t think, ‘Oh, I’m gonna save my career.’ He instead described himself as “an unintellectual feeler” and an “immersive actor” during a sprawling conversation about acting, spirituality and his conversion with [Bishop Robert Barron](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hjxKG4mR3U4), the former Auxiliary Bishop of Los Angeles and founder of the Word on Fire ministry. He also faced charges of misdemeanor battery and petty theft stemming from an altercation in June 2020.) And while I fully understand the attractiveness of pushing that story because of the current social landscape, the social currency that brings. I hope none of this negatively [affects] you, and that your film is successful in all the ways you want it to be.” “I had a gun on the table. On Thursday, LaBeouf opened up in a separate forum about the changes he underwent after facing several years of public relations crises, including allegations of abuse and sexual misconduct by former partner FKA twigs and other legal woes.

Shia LaBeouf recalls his conversion story in an interview with Bishop Robert Barron.

The 'Honey Boy' actor shared a video and text messages with 'Variety' that he allegedly exchanged with Wilde as he was exiting the project.

She spoke to [People](https://people.com/music/fka-twigs-says-miracle-to-survive-shia-labeouf-relationship-elle-magazine/) in February 2021 about the relationship, saying it was “It’s a miracle I came out alive.” People also obtained LaBeouf’s response to the lawsuit, in which he “denies, generally and specifically, each and every allegation contained in [Barnett]’s Complaint.” But he has also admitted to long-running to toxicity, telling [The New York Times](https://www.nytimes.com/2020/12/11/arts/music/fka-twigs-shia-labeouf-abuse.html), in part, “I have been abusive to myself and everyone around me for years. In the video, Wilde reportedly can be seen driving her car while telling LaBeouf that she is “not ready to give up on this yet” and insinuating that LaBeouf’s commitment level to the project might serve as a “wake-up call” for Pugh. “You know, I think this might be a bit of a wake-up call for Miss Flo, and I want to know if you’re open to giving this a shot with me, with us. “I feel like I’m not ready to give up on this yet, and I too am heartbroken and I want to figure this out,” she says in the video. (Vanity Fair has reached out to Wilde’s representative for comment.) Variety also reported that LaBeouf provided a video in his email in which Wilde is seen trying to convince the actor to stay on the project. Ultimately, my responsibility is to the production and to the cast to protect them.

On Jon Bernthal's Real Ones podcast, LaBeouf said he now wants to be a "billboard, for a principled way of living"

(LaBeouf formally denied all of Twigs’ accusations against him [in 2021](https://www.today.com/popculture/shia-labeouf-denies-assault-allegations-lawsuit-filed-ex-fka-twigs-t208742), when he filed a motion to have her case against him dismissed.) “And in the process of doing that, I hurt many other people,” he added, in a manner similar to comments he [made in December 2020](https://www.newsweek.com/shia-labeouf-says-hes-ashamed-abusive-history-amid-fka-twigs-allegations-1554198#:~:text=CEO%20Dev%20Pragad-,Shia%20LaBeouf%20Says%20He's%20'Ashamed'%20of%20Abusive,History%20Amid%20FKA%20Twigs%20Allegations&text=FKA%20twigs%20has%20filed%20a,against%20her%20during%20their%20relationship.), asserting that he had been “abusive” both to himself, and others, “for years.” “And many other people before that woman. LaBeouf posits himself as he is now as a “billboard, for a principled way of living.” He also drew comparisons to Josh Brolin and Mel Gibson as actors who’ve been accused of domestic abuse in the past, and tried to chart a course through Hollywood in the aftermath. [reportedly didn’t mention Twigs’ name at all](https://variety.com/2022/film/news/shia-labeouf-abuse-allegations-apology-1235352434/) during a new episode of Jon Bernthal’s podcast Real Ones tonight (apparently, the aforementioned “time and place” to break his “silence”), instead only referring to her as “that woman.” For example: “I hurt that woman,” he tells Bernthal during the interview, although he doesn’t appear to have addressed many of the specific allegations against him. [Bernthal’s Patreon](https://www.patreon.com/realones). They [currently have an April 2023 court date set for the lawsuit](https://www.indiewire.com/2022/05/shia-labeouf-assault-fka-twigs-trial-date-lawsuit-1234721944/). [FKA Twigs made her allegations against LaBeouf in 2020](https://www.nytimes.com/2020/12/11/arts/music/fka-twigs-shia-labeouf-abuse.html). As with the Wilde letter, LaBeouf—who admits in the interview to infidelity and not disclosing STDs to sexual partners—cites the birth of his daughter as a transformational moment for him. The other examples that we’ve had of how to navigate something like this — which is to go after the woman, or try to win a court case, or get back into a fucking movie or like get back on at all.” (Padre Pio will debut this year in competition at the Venice International Film Festival.) “I went and loaded up a gun and sat on my table.”) [the open letter he sent to Olivia Wilde this week](https://www.avclub.com/shia-labeouf-claims-not-fired-from-dont-worry-darling-1849461353)—discounting her assertion that he was “fired” from her film Don’t Worry Darling—Shia LaBeouf mentions former romantic partner FKA Twigs only once. “There is a time and a place to deal with such things,” LaBeouf wrote to Wilde, “And I am trying to navigate a nuanced situation with respect for her and the truth, hence my silence.” “My failings with Twigs are fundamental and real, but they are not the narrative that has been presented,” he wrote, presumably referring [to a series of allegations that the British musician has made against him](https://www.avclub.com/fka-twigs-sues-shia-labeouf-for-sexual-battery-and-rel-1845863691), suing him for “sexual battery, assault, and infliction of emotional distress” during the course of their relationship.