Jennette McCurdy

This article discusses sensitive topics such as child abuse and eating disorders. Jennette McCurdy was an omnipresent figure in my childhood. At school, my ...

I think that it was important to my growth and also to my identity to step away from it for a while, and at the time I thought permanently. Let me just say first and foremost, beyond all of the headlines, I think I wrote a great book and I hope people focus on that aspect of it. Although, now it is not lost on me the irony that my character loved eating so much and I was struggling with eating disorders. I completely stepped away from acting when I was 24, which I talk about in the book and why that was so important to me at the time for it to be a very definitive action. I wanted to make sure that I didn't go that far, so I didn't wanna be jumping in the air, flinging confetti like, “Haha, I'm glad my mom died,” because that's frankly just untruthful to my experience. I knew I wanted to be holding an urn with confetti coming out, because to me that's finding the celebration in the trauma, […] but on top of that, my expression was really important because […] this is where skirting the line between dark humor being flippant comes in. And yes, it was intentional that my mom's favorite color was pink, so I wanted there to be pink on it. So it's important for me to find the story and the entertainment in my life, as opposed to just oversharing. Therapy for me is my place for oversharing, and I think that's an important part of it. I think writing about all my childhood, adolescent experiences from my point of view now would do a disservice to who I was at the time. I expected to get a lot of pushback on just my voice, which is that I try to ignite the more tragic life events that I've experienced with humor and levity. “Child stardom is a trap,” McCurdy declares in her debut book, I’m Glad My Mom Died. The coming-of-age memoir recounts her nonconsensual journey of becoming a child actor, and the eating disorders and alcohol dependency that followed.

Jennette McCurdy writes in her memoir that iCarly creator Dan Schneider made her do seven takes of her first ever kiss despite being visibly uncomfortable.

I want my first kiss to be a real first kiss, not a kiss for a TV show." I don't want my first kiss to be like this. "But as much as I try to force it away, that romantic part of me is there. So I try to force it away," Jennette wrote. Jennette then adds that Nathan kindly reassured her once the scene was over, saying: "Hey, we're done." "My body is saying no, I don't want this. My body is saying no, I don't want this. I can smell his hair gel." Jennette explains that she tried to take The Creator's direction on board but she was unable to because she felt uncomfortable: "My mind is saying who cares that this is your first kiss, that your first kiss is on-camera. "He's moving his mouth around a bit, but I can't move mine. I want my first kiss to be a real first kiss, not a kiss for a TV show." "Our lips are touching," Jennette writes in the memoir.

Jennette McCurdy details her strained relationship with Ariana Grande while working on 'Sam & Cat' in her new memoir, 'I'm Glad My Mom Died.'

I’m constantly in the same environment as her, and she doesn’t exactly try to hide her successes,” she writes. When Grande missed filming, McCurdy was left on her own, and had to film with an empty box as her co-star in one instance, she alleges. “The week where I was told Ariana would not be here at all, and that they would write around her absence this episode by having her character be locked in a box. Grande would “go sing at award shows, record new songs, and do press for her upcoming album,” leaving McCurdy to “angrily hold down the fort” on Sam & Cat, she writes. “So I have to turn down movies while Ariana’s off whistle-toning at the Billboard Music Awards? F**k. This.” Jennette McCurdy is dropping more bombshells from her time as a Nickelodeon star.

In her memoir 'I'm Glad My Mom Died,' Jennette McCurdy said her final exchange with Miranda Cosgrove before 'iCarly' ended was so emotional.

In a New York Times profile of McCurdy, Cosgrove commented on her time on the set of iCarly, and whether she also experienced the alleged abuse McCurdy did. “When you’re young, you’re so in your own head,” Cosgrove said, explaining she was in the dark about what went on behind the scenes. When the final day of filming iCarly came around, McCurdy had mixed feelings about wrapping the show. She has such a special place in my heart. iCarly premiered in September 2007 and aired for five years before ending in November 2012. Vanity Fair also reached out to Nickelodeon for comment.)

Headlines about infamously creepy Nickelodeon producers and Ariana Grande feuds distract from the child star's powerful account of surviving abuse, trauma, ...

She throws up on birthdays, dates, and trips to Disneyland. (One of the non-bulimia-related stories involves her boyfriend, whose schizophrenia makes him think he’s Jesus Christ. It’s both more and less amusing than it sounds.) By the end of the book, when she enters recovery, it’s clear that the battle was incredibly hard-won. One story she tells is when she’s in her late teens: She secretly takes a trip with her (much-older) boyfriend and is caught by paparazzi. You also won’t even find a single detail about McCurdy’s biggest scandal, when shirtless photos of her surfaced online and she blamed then-boyfriend, NBA player Andre Drummond. He’s not named at all, although she mentions someone who might be him once. Both women’s eating disorders are so fierce that, when her mother is on her deathbed, they’re both still so fixated on weight and calories. But it’s clear that the treatment McCurdy received for her trauma and eating disorders, which involve holding yourself accountable for the specific things you have done, or processing in detail what’s been done to you, have informed how she’s written this book. In the book, McCurdy writes that Schneider encouraged her to take a sip of his whiskey-spiked coffee, and that he once gave her a back massage—both when she was 18 years old. The most damage McCurdy’s mother dealt was to her daughter’s body image. She discouraged McCurdy from writing because “writers dress frumpy and get fat.” She gave her daughter showers until she was 16, including sometimes with her older brother, in order to “save time.” These showers included invasive breast and vaginal exams, to check for cancerous lumps. (She and her three brothers slept and ate on mats, because there was no room for them on any actual beds.) Most evocative, for better or often-times worse, are the vignettes in which McCurdy describes her eating disorders. But in Brooklyn, at that Q&A, McCurdy spoke plainly of her disdain for that attention. What I’m Glad My Mom Died focuses on is the backstory of that title.

In her brand-new memoir, Jennette McCurdy opens up about her experience filming 'Sam & Cat' and explains her feud with Ariana Grande.

"That was the moment I broke," Jennette wrote. "And I’m at the stage in my career where my team is excited that I’m the new face of Rebecca Bonbon, a tween clothing line featuring a cat with her tongue sticking out. "Ariana is at the stage in her career where she’s popping up on every 30 Under 30 list that exists," Jennette wrote. "So now, every time she misses work, it feels like a personal attack. "I couldn’t take it anymore. Every time something exciting happens to her, I feel like she robbed me of having that experience myself." "The week where I was told Ariana would not be here at all and that they would write around her absence this episode by having her character be locked in a box. "If I wasn’t such a good sport to begin with, I wouldn’t be in this predicament in the first place. "This was supposed to be Just Puckett, the harrowing tale of a brassy juvenile delinquent-turned-school counselor." "Ariana grew up in Boca Raton, Florida, an incredibly wealthy, idyllic town, with a healthy mom who could buy her whatever she wanted, whenever she wanted — Gucci bags, fancy vacations, Chanel outfits." "So I have to turn down movies while Ariana’s off whistle-toning at the Billboard Music Awards? F--k. This." The author revealed Ariana regularly took off from work to focus on her budding music career.

In "I'm Glad My Mom Died," McCurdy says her mom taught her anorexic behaviors like calorie restriction and weekly weigh-ins. She later became bulimic.

When her mother died, McCurdy said she developed bulimia and couldn't stop bingeing and purging. She also wrote that if Debra were still alive, she believes she'd support the bulimia McCurdy developed following her death. Debra would also cry while holding McCurdy and tell her she wanted her to stay physically small and young. This led a young McCurdy to think, "If I start to grow up, Mom won't love me as much," and feel guilty at every sign of normal growth, like developing breasts and getting taller. Jennette McCurdy, the award-winning actress known for her role as Sam in Nickelodeon's "iCarly," says her mother taught her how to be anorexic starting at age 11. "She was telling her, 'In order for you to be special to me, you have to perform in the right way.

Jennette McCurdy's fellow Nickelodeon alum Josh Peck praised her after she released her memoir I'm Glad My Mom Died on Aug. 9.

And also cases where they did — they knew exactly what they were doing." There were cases where people had the best intentions and maybe didn't know what they were doing. Nobody has a perfect life."

NEW YORK—Claiming the trauma experienced by former iCarly star had all the makings of television gold, Nickelodeon reportedly offered Thursday to buy the TV ...

“We really enjoyed reading about how the producer and creator of iCarly pressured McCurdy into wearing bikinis, drinking alcohol underage, and massaging her without consent, and we’d really like to share that with our young viewers. “We really enjoyed reading about how the producer and creator of iCarly pressured McCurdy into wearing bikinis, drinking alcohol underage, and massaging her without consent, and we’d really like to share that with our young viewers. NEW YORK—Claiming the trauma experienced by former iCarly star had all the makings of television gold, Nickelodeon reportedly offered Thursday to buy the TV rights to Jennette McCurdy’s new memoir I’m Glad My Mom Died. “Nickelodeon would like to submit a bid to secure the rights to Jennette McCurdy’s harrowing memoir of abuse as a child actor on our network,” said Nickelodeon president Brian Robbins, explaining that the show would kick off with McCurdy being offered $300,000 of hush money to not publicly discuss her time at Nickelodeon or the men who took advantage of her.

The Biggest Bombshells from Jennette McCurdy's Memoir, 'I'm Glad My Mom Died'. Here are the major revelations revealed in the former Nickelodeon star's recently ...

When her mother was on her death bed with a predicted 48 hours to live, Jennette whispered in her ear news she thought would revive her. "This feels to me like hush money," McCurdy recalls of her reaction, noting that she turned the offer down immediately. Shortly after the show wrapped, reports circulated that it ended because Jennette was "upset" her costar was getting paid more, she writes. She feared being viewed as a "sexual being," she says. Jennette reveals she has kept a solid friendship with iCarly costar Cosgrove, even long after the series wrapped in 2012. Jennette said she was forced into the life Debra wished she could've had; Jennette recalls her mom asking, "You want to be Mommy's little actress?" Jennette details numerous instances where she felt " exploited" as a teen actor both on and off set. She also noted that her mother gave her showers, too, in addition to — and at the same time as — her brother Scottie, who was almost 16. Jennette points to her mom as the root of her eating disorder and believes Debra faced one herself. Doing everything to make her mom happy, she turned to calorie restriction (per Debra's suggestion). "Each Sunday, she weighs me and measures my thighs with a measuring tape. Jennette recalls her mom's reaction in her memoir: "'Don't be silly, you love acting. Her mother was undergoing challenges of her own at the same time; when Jennette was 2 years old, Debra was diagnosed with breast cancer.